‘multiple knitwear designer personality’.

i became distinctly aware that i have this ‘disorder’

working feverishly away at my notes for a new design last week.

the idealist in me started with a blank white page

neatly drawing schematics and writing evenly spaced lines of numbers,

absolutely sure that perfection was just within her grasp.

then the realist takes over.

she is less patient because she knows that no process is going to be perfect.

she erases often and isn’t so careful about things being neat and pretty.

deeply impatient, the mad creative type abruptly cuts in.

she is just trying to get the numbers, and more importantly the ideas, down

before her brain veers left

onto the next unexpected branch of its tangential thinking.

she scribbles her thoughts wherever there is open space,

drawing arrows

to make up for her lack

of clear linear thinking.

she can’t be bothered

to slow down long enough

to erase well,

so she leaves smudges.

she is a bit of a mess

still,

she’s the one

that gets the majority

of the work done

leaving the other two

cleaning things up.

and whether

they like it or not,

it does take all 3 of them

to get the complete job finished.

i admit it’s a bit crazy but it works, so i’m not going to be the one to try and fix it.

‘evenly’ taken from 6:35 of first kings.