awakeness

my son is not tired.

he is not dragging his sick little self around the house

on the verge of falling asleep on his feet.

ask him and he’ll tell you.

i. am. not. tired.

but what we refuse to admit to,

even to ourselves,

often seeps, leaks or peeks out in other ways…

IMG_2045shadestill, when i found that he’d crashed his big rig through

the front door of the fisher price house,

my mind immediately wondered

if he’d heard or seen

something

tragic.

IMG_2043shadecropbut,

when i

asked, “did the truck

have an accident?” he answered,

“no mama, the truck was tired so he drove inside to take a nap”,

and i must have raised an eyebrow

because he repeated for me

“no. i. am. not. tired.”

‘door’ taken from 31:32 in job.

furiousity

kids tell it like it is.

the younger they are

the more blunt & loud they tend to be

(ex: two year olds having nuclear tantrums at the grocery or the library).

my youngest is extremely verbal.

i think the combo of his personality and having 3 older siblings

has pushed him catch on to things extra quickly.

he wanted to keep playing trains today.

he wanted no interruptions.

i told him he had to leave the toys.

but only momentarily.

he was not pleased and he opened his mouth

to tell me in no uncertain terms how he felt.

‘i. hate. …’

(and my heart braced itself, because the end of that sentence is ‘…you!’)

somehow knowing their anger will pass and with it their great dislike

of whoever took them from whatever they wanted,

doesn’t always ease the sting.

well, i’m not exactly sure what happened next.

maybe he saw the ‘don’t you dare say that’ look in my eyes

(although, usually my kids just plow right through that without hesitation).

whatever the reason, he did freeze for just a second or two

stared my straight in the face and said,

as full on angry as he could,

‘…spoons!’

IMG_3310urbanperhaps because i didn’t react as he expected

(my face frozen with the effort

of trying to keep my muscles from cracking

into a grin) he said it yet again.

it was even louder the second time around.

‘i. hate. spoons!’

it took every ounce of motherly control i had

not to laugh.  every last ounce.

i was so proud of him for censoring himself,

i was so proud of me for keeping a straight face,

and someday when he’s bigger, i know we will laugh uproariously

about the thursday he hated spoons.

it may even become

one of those stories that nears

legend status at family gatherings

and is passed from one cousin to another,

handed down from one generation of mothers to the next,

because all of us mothers need to see the funniness in our kids

and the comical in ourselves.

therein lies daily sanity.

‘hate’ taken from 7:15 in romans.

recipe for laughter

firmly secure camera to a stable tripod.

add a houseful of kids.

mix in my brand new shutter release switch.

wait a few minutes and then follow the giggles to the fun.

IMG_2635cropIMG_2659cropIMG_2678cropwho knew that a camera accessory

could make my 4 kids and a neighbor so happy

for almost two hours on a dreary day?

and if you ask me, it’s educational to boot.

i mean they’re learning cause and effect, right?

not too shabby for a saturday afternoon.

                                                 {{wink, wink}}

‘secure’ taken from 11:18 in job.

not these pics

taking photos of all four of my kids

(hyped up on freshly fallen snow and Christmas sweets)

that all come out decent

is comparable to…

i’ve no idea what it’s comparable to.

it’s loud and bouncy and chatty and goofy and irritating and ‘just one more’

all rolled into one.

i thought for the sake of honesty

(and to try to brighten up this oddly warm, rainy and fog filled day in january),

i’d post some of the pics you won’t see us sending out to friends and relatives this year.

sj upti up (high)ep upen up(sidedown)

i’ve limited myself to posting one blooper of each child

but there were many, many more.

what was scarce were pics where they actually looked like themselves

on their best ‘smile because i said so’ behavior,

but i did get these four good ones:

Xmas 2013even at their worst, which this is not, my kids have

personality to spare.

and i love them

for that.

‘honesty’ taken from 12:15 in 2nd kings.

 

(under) the surface

the first day

of the second week

of Christmas vacation

is an oddly exhilarating mixture of:

“i am a graceful ballerina inspired by the peaceful home life and loving family surrounding me, despite the fact that i look like a clumsy purple robot to you”

IMG_2804satand

“please, oh please, could i just have 5 minutes alone? because even though i seem to have it together, the chaotic undertow of the ever changing social dynamic of my 4 kids is going to render me completely mad long before school starts again…”.

IMG_2784cropha.

things are

just not always

what they appear,

and this week falls squarely under the category of ‘it is what it is’.

‘graceful’ taken from 41:12 of job.

coming your way

IMG_1947croppedcongratulations wendy randolph!

the random number generator picked you,

and the sun is shining!

what more could an early weekday ask for?

for anyone else who really fell in love with the idea of having their own copy

(that’s always how i feel when i enter a contest and lose),

you can buy your own here.

i would if i were you.

smile.

‘love’ taken from 8:7 in song of solomon.

tactile

textural adjective

:a characteristic quality; essence

:relating to a surface that is other than smooth

:the visual and especially tactile quality of a plane

:the characteristic structure of the interwoven or intertwined threads, strands,

or the like, that make up a textile fabric

okay.  so,

i like to touch things.

cozy soft or heavily textured.

a flat surface turned 3 dimensional or silky smooth.

and all the better if my eyes feel like they can ‘touch’, too.

rough old tree bark, the surface of water at the hands of the wind;

these things really catch me and hold my attention.

what started as this: IMG_2051cropped which made me think of this:images

was ‘captured’ in the stitches of this:tasa swatch fade

grew firmly in my mind into this:sketch0004crop

and with the help of classic elite and their mountaintop ‘crestone‘ became this:DSC_3035

‘tasa’ now available here as a free pdf download courtesy of classic elite yarns.

‘smooth’ taken from 3:5 in luke.

sing-a-long

she has just turned 5.

he is about to be 2.

as he lays down

for a diaper change,

he grabs the ball of yarn

she has been ‘knitting’ with.

(note: ‘knitting’ involves

wrapping yarn around

and around the needles

as if to make a

very short, wide pompom)

she looks at her ‘knitting’,

looks at him,

and begins to sing,

“oh, i love my cute little baby.

big sisters knit for their babies and brothers.

i am knitting the cutest little hat for his very, very cutest little head.”

a kodak moment if ever there was one.

‘moment’ from 7:17-18 of job.